In college I decided that I was going to start being healthy because I was getting pretty chubby. (Who doesn't in college?)
Chubby Marissa:
Oh yeah...lookin' good!
Anyway, when I started focusing on healthy eating I changed my view on food and it became more about fuel and nutrition than just pure taste satisfaction. I know it sounds dorky, but getting my daily servings of fruits and vegetables became like a game. And I really liked playing it. I should be fair and mention that it also helped immensely that I was diagnosed with Adult ADD and prescribed medication that made losing weight easier. But it won't stay off for long unless you work for it. Anyway, then I started to look more like this:
Back in my student-teaching days.
And that new view on food lasted until pregnancy hit. Now food is something so glorious, something so essential. I literally am hungry all of the time. I try to balance out the craving indulgences by eating a vegetable or a fruit with every meal but it's hard when all you want is...
and
and
And that's just for breakfast :-)
It's not only hunger. I like...desire food in a way I never have. As Arna put it, I now look at food like a lioness hunts a gazelle. This crazed look of feasting. I apparently attacked a cob of corn last night with such vigor that he was hypnotized. I only noticed when he was standing next to me at the table - laughing. I then asked if he was going to finish his roll.
I also really like googling images of the food I'm craving. Especially when I'm at work, when I can't just eat whatever I want. I have to be content with the snacks I've brought (usually carrots, apples, yogurt, cheese, nuts...blah blah blah) until I can get home and raid the fridge or get my charming husband to make a grocery run.
I knew I would be eating more, but this is crazy. No one tells you that you'll become like a food...zombie.
It's 10am...time for first lunch.
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